My body tells me I should be awake. My common sense tells me I should be asleep. But I'm far too excited about this day to sleep right now.
This is a day I've looked forward to for nearly nine months. However, long before that there was a divine plan in place for this meeting today. I don't believe in chance, or luck, or fate. I believe God has brought you and me together in this time and in this place according to His plan.
Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.~Psalm 139:16
As hard as I've tried, I admit to feeling less than well-prepared for what is about to happen in just a few hours. I've done this before, but that doesn't make it any easier. We'll be ushered into a waiting room, likely with a couch, and you'll be brought to us there. Your care givers will tell you to greet us. They will tell you to call us Mama and Baba. There will be much chattering and talking in background. They will probably tell you to hug us. I just want you to know that you don't have to hug us or pretend to love us yet. While we have loved you for months, our feelings will not be hurt if you do not love us right away. We will do everything we can to earn your trust and love and acceptance. Given time, I believe you will learn to love and trust us.
You have a big family waiting for you at home. You may be surprised when you discover how big! Our guide gasped when she discovered we already have six children. There is no such thing as large families in China anymore. Your brothers and sisters are ready to scoop you up and love and play with you!
I came to China with the most wonderful man--your father. He is gentle and kind and he's truly very patient. He's the best daddy in the world and I believe you'll be able to sense that very quickly. Please don't be afraid of his bald head and big, blue eyes! He will lead you by example. Follow his example and you will do well in life. He is so excited about being your daddy.
God has uniquely gifted you in ways we don't even know about yet. We will help you discover your talents and abilities so that you can use them for His glory, all the days of your life.
Be bold and courageous, Caleb. You're being asked to do something that most adults could never do. You're going to leave everything that is familiar to you in a few hours and your life will change forever. I pray that the transition is not too difficult for you. I pray that you have an adventuresome spirit and like to try new things. Many exciting experiences await you! God has given you a future and a hope!